Friday, April 17, 200910:47 PM
I believes strongly that it was the right move made, especially
now.
Every conversations made only caused me anger and frustration.
How could any two person communicates if there is a constant disconnection, and communication breakdown. How could any two person be friends, or even a step further if it were to happen so often. Somethings aren't just about feelings, deeper understanding is needed. If one can't understand the other, the communication will be off, the relationship will be at a stand still. If one have to try very hard just to understand the other, the whole process will be very tiring. It would serve no better purpose to advance any further. Iam glad I've move on, for reasons that I've just come to realize. It's totally pointless. If only I've woken up earlier to it.
Iam finally free of this tiring relationship. Finally walked through my consciences. I kept thinking it's me, Iam the one finding faults, but seriously Iam not. We just can't communicate like we use to, and the constant anger I felt makes things so much worst. I may have chosen the worst time to walk away. You may call me selfish. But it's a choice I've made and I believe strongly it's the perfect choice. Dragging any longer will only cause more misery, in you and in me.
RONGWEN! Thank you, I've learnt something new about relationship.
Love is not enough to sustain any relationship, there are so manny factors to it. Your last call finally made me understood this.
Now I finally can keep this a secret no more. I think it'll be an "er du shang hai" but I couldn't care more. >.<
And since then I've been trying hard to keep these secrets, trying to protect someone from hurt and save myself from explanations. But heck. It's so tough to be secretively, been caught too many times anyways. And I ought to be even more SELFISH! XP
1) I've officially broken off with Rongwen.
2) I've found someone else. Someone, who can totally read me like a book, dote on me, appreciates every good and bad of me, totally understanding and caring, and of course most importantly loves me, and vice versa. It's a real new experience and Iam loving it. Iam glad to move with my intuitions and landed myself with a sweet loving guy. Now wondering who he is? He's the so often mentioned WH, in recent entries.
Now should I made this known to my family too? They're the conservatives, don't understand new generations bunch, and "WHY" people. They are the ones Iam refusing to explain to. =\
God please tell me what to do. O.O
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